silva rerum

She dropped a tear more rare than pearl

I can­not help but feel sheep­ishly guilty that I’ve neg­lected to post any­thing – any­thing – at all. Having elided details about the first half of September until now, I hope I can write down some of my med­it­a­tions here.

I feel slightly over­whelmed by my course­load this term, but I’m not sur­prised in the least. It is just as, if not more, chal­len­ging than I had pre­dicted to juggle so many courses. I can’t really say which courses I enjoy the most, but I feel that I have a rather well-​rounded group of instruct­ors. If I weren’t so eas­ily intim­id­ated, I would love to meet them personally.

My extra­cur­ricular activ­it­ies have kept me rather busy. I can’t really say that I didn’t expect it, but I’m sur­prised by the intens­ity with which they come at me. I worry that calls for my resig­na­tion are merely pending; I fear that I hear whis­pers of my incom­pet­ence echo in the hal­lowed halls. I hope I don’t disappoint.

Work! It’s taken so much of my time, but it’s really rather reward­ing if frus­trat­ing. I’m cur­rently on the fence about tutor­ing – I feel as if I don’t have the time but I really enjoy doing it. I’m sure my stu­dents can find other tutors but that thought doesn’t assuage my guilt-​ridden mind.

At any rate, it’s time to keep my chin up and get set for a very inter­est­ing term indeed. I bought a lab coat today so I finally feel as if I’m a real sci­ent­ist. Huzzah!

Optimism pre­vails!

1. Five of Wands
2. Ten of Wands
3. Three of Pentacles
4. King of Swords
5. Eight of Pentacles
6. The Hermit
7. The Sun
8. Seven of Cups
9. The High Priestess
10. Justice