silva rerum

On, on, on, on, on! to the breach, to the breach!

So I have been rather neg­li­gent with this blog, I’ll admit it, mea culpa. I’ve made up sev­eral excuses to myself about this already – why blog when I use other things like Tumblr, Last​.fm, etc. ? Is there really any need?

And then I real­ise, of course there is. This is my scratch­pad. I’ll have to pre­face that meta­phor though.

I notori­ously vacil­late among pos­i­tions on things. Hesitant to think about decisions, loathe to make them. The track record is pretty clear – choos­ing to (not) go to IB, choos­ing Science over Commerce, etc. And I jus­tify them (the decisions, that is) to myself some­how, some­way later, post factum.

It all hap­pens in my head which is often a bewil­der­ing and con­fus­ing place. So I blog. It’s ridicu­lously mundane and pain­fully dull, but I’ve firmly con­vinced myself (for now) that there is a pur­pose, a tele­ology to all of this and I have to com­pel myself to begin again.

Of course, it doesn’t help that my laptop has broken down. I’ve reformat­ted a few times but the prob­lem still reoc­curs – I love my HP tx2500 but I think it’s on its dying days with some sort of hard­ware prob­lem. I’ve sus­pec­ted for a while that it could be the mother­board but my dad reas­ons that it must be the hard drive. At any rate, the RAM seems fine and it’s 2x2GB so if I can sal­vage them, I will.

It’s been odd, trans­ition­ing back to paper notes for classes. I guess I do listen a bit more, lack­ing the dis­trac­tions of the inter­net but at the same time, I fell as though I’ve been unplugged and am now lay­ing dormant. I’m not as updated with news and when I do find out, I’m cer­tainly not the first. I hardly play any games on Steam any­more, mostly because my desktop is old (but reli­able). This tech­no­logy detox may yet do some good.

Here is hop­ing that I can keep this writ­ing thing going.