silva rerum

And if I’m flying solo, at least I’m flying free

With the end of September fast approach­ing, it’s dif­fi­cult to retain any semb­lance of the enthu­si­asm I ori­gin­ally had at the end of August. This is not sur­pris­ing (at least not to the ini­ti­ated uni­ver­sity stu­dents – bless those first years’ hearts). It’s safe to say school dom­in­ates my think­ing; I wake up and sleep, think­ing about school.

That is not to say that I don’t have other pri­or­it­ies. I like to ima­gine that I’m reas­on­ably able at my job. All is calm save for some excep­tional dif­fi­culties through which I’m work­ing. I keep remind­ing myself to take it one step at a time. My assist­ant is really a bless­ing, though I really do worry about how she’s man­aging to bal­ance time. Is that nor­mal? Do bosses typ­ic­ally worry about the per­sonal lives of their assist­ants? I hope I’m not over­step­ping any boundaries.

I thor­oughly enjoy my involve­ment with SUS, though. My budget suc­cess­fully passed exec­ut­ive com­mit­tee even though some dis­cus­sion ensued its present­a­tion. I’m con­fid­ent in my abil­ity to lead SUS into a sus­tain­able fin­an­cial future and I hope that my vis­ion comes through. I’m entirely optimistic.

it’s odd. I vacil­late between a gen­eral mal­aise and a soar­ing optim­ism. It con­fuses and intrigues me. It feels like I’m wait­ing, pas­sion­ately, rev­er­ently, for some­thing. Something that I intu­it­ively know is com­ing, but of which have no con­scious know­ledge. Fingers crossed.

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